Wednesday, June 02, 2004

see, i am never really that wrong...
i always think that you're always there for me, though just to be a perfect Goddamn listener to my heartache...but u just never really take it serious...
you never take me seriously...
and you were never there for me,
i am expecting too much i suppose, i realize...
for such an ignorant and senseless persona like you...
i am going to alcatraz and you went somewhere lustful darkness with whom whatsoever, and i knocked, hoping that you would open it for me, but you just didnt do that, and you were so busy cracking each desire you have, i suppose, what else? within the dark...
i am tired of telling you to remember that some of the times you have to realize that there is this soul right here...
and you just...i dont know, i am tired...
i am tired to tell you that there is me, there is us, there is this bond that we should kept together...and somehow, i am forsaken, you told me not to be receptive cause you are ignorant, and i did my best not to be receptive, and be that eager...
Godamn it, when you will get it? get the idea?
it hurts, it hurts...and i cannot hate you cause this love is that big, you know it, but dont give a damn to it,
cause you give a damn to something else,
might be the best thing ever happenned to you,
might be a blessing to whom it may concern,
might be a curse to whom being compete,
might be a lost and an achievement...
it hurts cause you are so ignorant, cause you never really have a place for you in your heart, and never let me know that you will always be there for me...and i am so tired to wait for you

stanley dirgapradja@petit garcon 6:52 PM [comment]

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