just got back from a day shooting with some friends. the result is one girl despise me because i brought her boyfriend with me for the shooting. i think its kinda unfair. for her i mean. hopefully i can do the best and make something worth for her to let go her boyfriend for a while. a hard day of shooting anyway. moving around the town to find a perfect place to do the ending shots. have i been unfair to some people. why do i believe in readings that much. kinda sick to know that not all people are liking the idea of one perfectionist like you. whats wrong of doing things because you can do it on your own. them i am a selfish one. i just know that i am doing my best on everything. and whats the best for then when it comes to the realization that people envy that. and that they are faraway from you. its lame. tomorrow is another shooting day. u might drop dead for all the exhaustion, and i hate it when they turn their back from you. its a lame plot for a friendship. an unimportant measurement on how people are doing on you. they are just lame. am i lame for discussing that?