Sunday, February 27, 2005

janji joni will hit theatres everywhere in indonesia on the 28th of april this year. like the images i provide below (from the official movie website). the movie is being written and directed by Joko anwar and produced by Nia Dinata. Janji Joni tells the story of Joni (nicholas saputra)whose duty is to take rolls of movies to the theatres so that everyone can watch their favorite pictures on the big screen, yet one day when he is on his way to deliver the rolls, the whole city seems prevent him from reaching his destination while at the same time he is also on his way to prove his love to his future love (the adorable mariana renata).
anyway, i will also direct my second indie movie entitled mon anniversaire (which is fixed already and will hit the indie theatres everyhwere soon...ghahahaha)...well, wish me luck so that this project will be delivered, eventually to all of u viewers of cheap and silly movies. well...like joni, i need to prove manythings right. every people. i guess i need to take real steps to fix my ass from things that prevent me from escaping myself from this tangled life.ouugfggghhhhh,.,,,




some galeries, copyrighted from www.janjijoni.com , for more of images and cool stuffs just visit the official website!


niko and joko anwar (the one with glasses)

niko's screen test

niko's and mariana's screen test, i guess this one is for the poster

another niko's screen test

another niko's and mariana's screen test

rachel maryam

the adorable mariana renata [from a far]...hehehehehe

*all images are copyrighted of Kalyanashira Films.

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Thursday, February 24, 2005

these months are just rush for me. i have to finish the thesis i am writing soon. i have promised my father to graduate by may, yet my counselor said that it is quite impossible for me to do that. gosh. i am cornered now. there are many things i still need to run for and to finish. by april, a prospect on my career as a screenplay writer is quite promising, and my recent link on the industry said that many writers are needed back there in Jakarta. suddenly i remembered the topic me and my friend discussed some times ago. this eductaion needs to be finished. unless we want to stay and be a darn silly student for good. that's how they call it. such a lines of no future and no prospect. i have a career to catch. life to live. the industry is calling me.

help!!! if i am not puting this in priority i will be stucked. for good. nope...as long as i can manage to pull the tangling points...i know...i can go futher.

stanley dirgapradja@petit garcon 4:41 AM [comment]

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Monday, February 21, 2005

most of the times i dont actually feel that i am quite responsible to my life. shame on me. but thats the fact. i am less responsible than my sisters do. up to this moment i am such a trouble maker for the men of my age. suddenly i remember a brother of a friend who happens to be as useless as i am. duuuh. well, i dont have the right to justify, yet...from what she said i can conclude that the guy i meant here is that kind of person. in fact there are many useless people in this world. i am one of them. i reckon that my father used to call me 'destroyer,' since everything that i touched suddenly broken. i did not know the exact reason. but i knew that those things wont last and things will always break that's why u need to buy a new one. he always blame me on anything and call me a boy of no importance. telling me that i cannot do anything else beside asking for money, breaking those stuffs he bought, and the rest that i could not remember.and now, every achievement that i made did not really mean something to him. i wonder, to whom i can really share any goals that i have. my friends do not really understand it all, and only a few really matter to me. therefore i feel less proud of myself. do i spill it all?
i am quite stuffed with that. got too tired and feel so relieve that i am out of the house. but then i get the idea that i will never really escape myself from my parents. there's always a piece that makes me back there. back in the house, where i could find no peace. to be honest i feel reckless there. its all changing and i dont feel quite at home.

now here i am, a more trouble maker and a more less responsible creature. i dont likely feel proud. anyone out there feel likely to survive without someone standing near to you and can really appreciate what u have done, what u have achieve.

i manage to find myself an escape for all of that. damn i hate writing this. i just want to be home. i want to go home. where ever that is now.

listen to Michael Buble's single home here.

ps: dont read this, its just an unprecious note of my emotional state. i dont like to write it anyway, but it just came out.i just miss everyone i used to know in the past, and the past that captured me.

stanley dirgapradja@petit garcon 6:34 PM [comment]

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Saturday, February 19, 2005

i told my mon hermano that i need my money back. i know i need some money so that i can hit the floor tonight. u cant go without any bucks of money in ur pockets if u want to hip the night. i say, it must not be in the club, well...i never spend any bucks of money in a club, the drinks there are way expensive, except if u know some guys there who will give u free drinks. and except if the club is a cheap one where a regular drinks will only cost u like two third of the hippest club in town's price.
well, my brother is not a party junkie, but he plays in a band that belongs to the life like this in particular. so night life is not escaping from mine and his life. both of us has our own plan that night. its friday night, what else can happen? its like many of those club songs that runs in the hip hop and RnB tunes. dress like you will die tomorrow, and lose ur self like there is no tomorrow. life is a heluva moment dude. hahahahahah. my brother is going to play with his band in one dreadful club in town. never wonder though why him and his band ended there this far. he said that the management would shift the image of that place. imagine a place where go go dancers, kinky guys, almost-bitch-whore on sights, and pimp daddy all around. yea. not a kind of club i dare to step my feet into. so out of my dictionary.
mine is another rave scene called SonicWave. yeahh. featuring a dj plays in the range of progressive trance. well, the night was wholy belong to the rave. the top 40s is somewhere out there now, though i still can groove myself with any club songs. we started like 11pm and ended dreadfully at 3. ougghh...my record is unbeatable. the first time i went to that so called cool club with sandra we came at 10 and died gracefully with a soaking shirts, dark eyes, and soar feet at 4. sigh. rrrhhhaaaaaaaaggghhhh. and now. the djs spin like crazy. and the ultimate show belongs to the trance scene. he was so wicked that i could not stop moving. i dont take pills guys. so i was imagening what will happen to those who take pills and they dance on my floor. shits. dont think about it. those kinda guys are party pooper.



anyway, i went last nite with sandra-of course-my club partner in crime sister, tyo, and memes. well memes is an average clubber and she was starting her stardom. hahaha. and tyo was a surprising one. he has the endurance dude. may be its because that was his first time. my first time was unstopable and i could dance any movements in my thoughts. last night i was a bit losing my groove dude.
oyeah. some party poopers tored the night with crime. they fought each other. i almost got hit by a glass of beer and a girl got cut on her neck by the same glass i guess. yes, i am not kidding dude.she was bleeding.
in the end, the tiring night ended at 3. the party continued to a 24hour lounge on the east. we laid like hopeless brat there until 6 in the morning. i messaged my bro and he met me there too. we played pool and sipping expresso and listening to renee olstead. ohhhh...
no no no. tonight there is another scene on the club in the eastern part of the city. another rave scene with focus on tribal and bass. yeahhh....will i be there, with sandra? ohhh....oughhjhh...i can already hear the music, the crowd, everything...ahghhhhh.
anyway, i need to sleep then.

stanley dirgapradja@petit garcon 12:51 PM [comment]

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Thursday, February 17, 2005

to start with everything. this has been an awful hot week. i notice the flue is spreading, and guess what...another rumor that another kind of storm is going to hit the city by 21st of february, damn.when this kind of shit is going to end. anyway, i am already down by this fuckin influenza.up to this moment i have sneezed like 7 times. and its an air conditioned room.suddenly i remember the thing that a virus easily evolves and spreads in an air conditioned room.ahh...too much movies.resident evil anyone...or...what else? suddenly i loss it. anyway, mon hermano suddenly appears like days after the last time i messaged him. why should he appears anytime he needs my help.yet, anytime i think i need him around he is just that hard to be reached. u face this sort of situation too. i wonder what is happening with the present world. we have the so called sophisticated gadget that ease us to reach each other in just minutes. so that we can listen to each other's voice,though just in the form of audio, yet why we seldom use it. i mean, why we dont have the eagernes just to know someone else's matter whom we think are our close relatives. i am afraid this is the modern world individuality.when eventually no one is interested in no one's matter.is this the so called privacy? i guess its not it.
may be that is it. the motives to reach each other, to contact, to get close with someone close to you, probably your relatives decrease each day. and in the end there is no trace of the social relation ship. the doom of the modern man? when that time comes i guess star bucks would be empty from people with the eagerness to chat at noon.
anyway, i am still waiting loads of stuffs this month, this year, gosh its like forever. no wonder people hate to wait. its the most boring status.what r u doing? i am waiting. and its like forever.
i remember i was waiting a plane one day and because of heavy fogs and no plane can reach sights of the landing field then the airport was closed like 2 days until the sky is clear.
sandra lost her cell again. someone sneaked into her room while she was in the bathroom. its the second time already she lost her phone. damn. thank God i never lost mine. well, i lost something else in the past. i lost some money, i lost pair of shoes. and its always the same scenario. these thieves possed to be someone i know, he was looking for me, and when he knew that i was not there he's gone already with my lovely shoes.
so much things you waste from ur big mouth when it comes to the boredom huh? me too...


stanley dirgapradja@petit garcon 10:41 AM [comment]

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Monday, February 14, 2005

each year is the same. but i dont know, didnt remember exactly whether last year was raining like this. i guess its the whether that makes it worst. it was raining from noon to night. like there is nothing quite significant. there is anyway. today is that fucklametine day. have i started blogging on last year's vals? why valentine is so damn important for some so called romantic day. like me and netha's predicted yesterday today will be the day of the fucking pink to socialize its lame mood everywhere u looking. rain and pink. awful combination. why is it so damn big? why everybody is selling those lame roses. why people cannot enjoy being alone. why cannot i enjoy it? i try to call everyone to kill this awkward evening. i wanted to kill it. everyone is being lousilly romantic and awkwardly feeling L.O.V.E....yeah...why there is such day anyway, what makes it best is the rain...okay, rain...i am 22 and something and so far i am soluna...maybe i should make a movie about a perfect loner portraying my being lonely as a person. having so called friends, many friends, only some are really loyal ones, and the rest are possers and fakers. i wanted it to get over soon. i am pretty lame with night times. u tell me. raise your hands night-lamer.this post is lame too. i guess i need a cup of latte.i need to kill this suspicious thoughts evolving in my mind now.i guess it will blow.or it wont? what a lame, what a shame, what a fame? what rhyme...o, synical mind come to me lets kill everybody!!



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Sunday, February 13, 2005

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Friday, February 11, 2005

people wonder how they future would be look like, well...i do too. but i dont like to predict the future. i love to let it be a secret. just do what you have in front of you. dont make up things too hard. but also dont pretend that life is that easy. it is hard baby. i know its hard. if i hadnt been that strong i already hang myself years ago. but the mysterious future keep calling me to open its door each day. so here i am.

anyway, not trying to be bragging or boasting but there are some people out there who are glad enough and supportive enough knowing the stuffs i am doing now.they told me to be productive and be someone in the future to reconstruct the flaw that this nation have in the industry. well, i dont feel that i am that big already but the idea that i will be able to create changes challenges me. this is my wonder in the future. can i do it? cause many people put their hopes on my back. they think that what i am doing is such a cool job. but honestly, it does not make enough for my living expenses. i need something regular and put this cool job ever (a friend of mine said that doing this thing is the best thing in the world, many people dreamed of having such job) aside as my side job.i need a regular job that makes me able to fit myself with the writing things, thats it. cause i do realize when i have a project then i would take much of my time.i will be gone like weeks, even months, and if i am doing things like Lord of the Rings then i would be leaving for years and when i am back my beard would be long enough to sweep the floor.naa...kidding.
well, i guess people are always in this phase. i was wondering what would i be in the future, some clues have already being presented by life itself and i have met them on my way, and now i am doing it, but i wonder-again-will it be the one, the ultimate creativity of my life time and eventually people will know me to be one of those people. i dont want to be stiff and satisfied already with what i am doing. for me there are doors of creativity that i need to explore, to feel, to live with, to experience.
because everything has its flaw lines then people have to anticipate this flaw by doing other things, and when the other things also brings its flaw to one's life then there will be several more alternatives to hinder it. gee.
life like Carrie Bradshaw is a un sueño hecho realidad. people would want to live like her. living in the middle of NYC, notably in one luxurious apartment in down town Manhattan, when the day comes then it comes to gossip times with your partner in crime, when night comes then lets decide to hit the floor, or flirt a hunk somewhere on the corner, no matter how old he can be, when the night is so late, two choices: spend the night alone, fuck someone. case closed. or the third one: write it down. escape your stuttering mind through writing taht will make you infamous in weeks cause your writing also appears at Vogue. when the weekend comes, well...go to some painting exhibition, may be there you'll find another hunk to spend the night with, or may be he would paint you naked, and if you are lucky then he will be the one. the right one.
ahh...it is so hard being carry bradshaw. and its getting harder cause she loves shopping and mahnolo blahnik. give me a break.i am living in a third world country, notably in a country which sets it corruption level on the 3rd position from the top.
i got to break the flaw.
a tiny bit of plan, with another plan to retrieve the flaw.
see, the future is still mysterious now. one question: during the attempt you make to kill the flaw, can u still be able to hangout with your buddies just for a cup of coffee in you fave starbucks? thats a question about the future.
i would be so much afraid to know that i will lose my quality times with friends and having no more chance to sip my fave frappucino cause i am so damn busy.
question your future...

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Thursday, February 10, 2005

the title of this posting. the rain that pours during the day and night. the mood. its complete. a break of a band. well, many bands, even famous bands disbanded in the end.well, some are lousy bands, one hit wonder, who can only provide nothing but lousy songs.though, i enjoyed some of the lousy songs. you name it, creed disbanded, steps disbanded, westlife disbanded (though it was only bryan), even evanescense has to lose ben mody. sigh. its a prove that nothing is lasting. but some things are.like good friendship. have u found one?anyway, disbanded bands meaning that one has to say goodbye to the other.its not easy to say goodbye. i was half alive when i had to say bye to my mom. she was burried and i was crying like it was the end of the world. it was, for me at least though eventually i met the realization that life should not end there.and here i am continuing my life.
well, orion disbanded some days ago. i got the news from sandra. sandra cried to that. i understood fully how she felt. orion was,or lets use is instead since they still have 3 members left, a great band. La gran musica banda. orion plays latin songs.i met the band while they were still playing in the food court where me and sandra eats everyday. the food court located near by to our campurs and dorms. the place is always full everyday. it gathers many kinds of vendors who used to sell their foods on the streets. they call it kaki lima here. but the government decided to put them in one place so that they wont bother the trafic, beside i think it is cleaner than they time they were on the streets. and a lot safer of course.
anyway, orion played lots of latin songs. they played spiritfully. they played lively. thats why me and sandra are they big fans. up to this moment. their songs are the one that would make you dance. u would forget that its a public place and no one in Indonesia would dare to dance on that kind of venue.well, things are different for me.if only its okay to dance there while others are eating i would dance. i mean it. i guess thats why most latin people love to dance.and latin people dance exotically. notice tango, salsa, and what else? well all of them are exotic for me.they got that nice hip movement.i guess thats also why latin ladies captured our eyes frequently. helo jeniffer lopez, helo cruz, halo salma. orion plays good latin songs and some of the songs are my favorite.

"ami wawa alamaire...amiwawa alamaire, amiwawa...amiwawa...amiwawa alamaire"

i hardly memorize the lyrics or even the title of the songs but i love them.that much.it makes me want to dance.most of the orions have long hair that go to their shoulders. they oftenly played with black uniforms.and sometimes they play somewhere else cause i know that playing in one place only wont make them able to afford their daily lives.i know how hard that is to work for ur damn ass life. they came faraway from cilacap to play latin songs here in jogja.
now they disbanded. i already sense some sort of break in the near past. i know somehow that its gonna end. i know that everyfans would be sad to know this. cause our foodcourt wont be the same. no sexy, sultry, hot latin songs to accompany our dinner.no wild imagination that one wish he or she can dance there while other people see them dance among the heat of the food. no long haired guys playing latin songs. no more. its over.
this sunday they will leave jogja. even some of the previous members of the band has been gone soon enough that we dont know where they are now.

too bad. cause they are good. they got the groove, for a latin band.


stanley dirgapradja@petit garcon 10:11 PM [comment]

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Wednesday, February 09, 2005

well, its not that i am bothered enough by the fact that actually my heart lies to me. but its the future.

in fact that i am always thinking about the future. ohhh...I am a man now. put yourself all together then. i wonder if this topic would make a good premise for a movie. what would a man do if his damn heart actually is lying all the time to him. that all these times he believe that he is a kid but when he takes that stupid quiz he is much older than he thinks.

anyway, its ash wednesday today.the wednesday that marks the beginning of fasting month for Christians. for fourty days one is obliged to eat as much as once a day during the fasting day (wednesday and friday) until the easter comes.one is also abliged not to eat they favorite food during the fasting month as a sign of deep sorry, and great tolerance for what Christ has done to save us. hopefully this year i can really put my self within this holly state. i have been a wreck and a bad ass in the past years. never been that serious to do any religious stuffs. i am far away from Him. do not You think so? i do not want to leave Him anyway. i do not want to be the one who is left behind by Him when I need Him. i believe all this time that i can do it by myself. well, in some particular moment there are things i need His deal within that bussiness. do You get that?

ahh. i am 27 now.seriously, i am 27, having a body of 22, and really wondering about my future.

stanley dirgapradja@petit garcon 6:25 PM [comment]

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Tuesday, February 08, 2005

not many things happened today, from morning to noon. i met my brother, again, the fat one, komang, he was with his girlfriend, lucy, the inconsistent lover to whom my brother is having delight affection. sigh. well, love is blind and love has its own way to fit her fat ass between two potential lovers (now, where is the one for me?!!). okay. i have nothing to say to what happen to them beside that, okay, i will see how far you go now.i have been very supportive to both of you, and the rest of the ways belong to you. quit being kids and being inconsistent huh.
good news, the storm wont come. the latest report on the potential wreck was yesterday and scientist told that the wind was changing its current to the Australian sea (i guess its not the name, but its located on the north west of the australia, so its an australian sea.hahaha). well, many readings have been done to any events which possibly taking place this whole year, but dont you think that we will lose the fun to know that thing A and thing B will occur, suddenly we manage ourself to prepare for the event and eventually we shift the things that should happen and in the end it does not happen. i guess God will be dissapointed.will He?
surprise: i have finished my analysis everyone, i am 90% to my escape from the department. well, it aint over till the fat lady sings right? but where is my fat lady? well, hahahah....got nothing to say beside that i am so excited to finish the analysis and eventually i know what i am writing, i know what i am analysing, and i know how to put American's ass down. yeehaa! its like a quenching orange juice after a very long summer. how is it feel anyway.
mmm...i was watching a very nice movie yesterday, i will spoil anything related with the movie later, or u better check out my review on 'currently watching' on the right of this page....mmm, i wonder where's my other brother, budi, he told me that he will contact me today. but its night already and no sign of him.
hey, tommorow will be Chinese New Year, its a new year for the chinese, of course you freak, ahh...i miss Pontianak. on that kind of event Pontianak will be so crowded with any kind of Chinese Cultures, from dragons, firecrackers, foods, oranges...yummyy...
hey, i put a link on a music i composed sometimes ago. check it out...its on the right page too....


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Saturday, February 05, 2005

a friend today told me an unlogical assertion about why Indonesia is having such a bad whether by the end of last year and the beginning of this year.let me share one thing really occupying my mind presently. a local paper has been fuzzing around with an official paper from the sultan that within the next week, presumably until the 10th of February, a tropical storm will hit Jogja with blowing wind that will reach the speed of 75 k perhour.meaning that is a quick burst to your face, you are lucky to be alive then. the letter also said that everyone should becareful by the 9th until the 10th since the 'presumably' storm will be on its peak of action. yikes. i thought jogja is the safest place on earth.well, it is not. since the huge mount merapi is sleeping prettyly behind the view of this city.on one point it is a killing time bomb, since anytime she could wurp her larva out and once in 1980 something i heard about the hot wind that killed many people, plant, and animals.on the other point its a prestigious tourism attraction. yikes. natural disaster is not in everybody's dictionary i think. but the previous tsunami in aceh was really a threat for every human being. its a quick sweeping.okay, i am panic now. i am such a panic bitch now.but i wonder why people around me are acting like nothing is gonna happen. am i the only one who is bitching around about the unfriendly whether?
the sultan told everyone to pack important things for the worst case scenario. what are they anyway? i have not packed my stuffs. dont go out. dont stand by a high tree. thats some of the warnings too.ahh, i am already imagening the scenes in that twister movie starring helen hunt.indonesia is not america anyway where every area has that underground bunker to hide yourself when storm attacks. indonesia is the not the country where its people are taught the pre storm precaution. like its Japan or arizona or arkansas or any place where storm hits the spot annualy. i wonder whether people are acting normally since most javanese are not neko neko and tend to be nrimo (accepting everything as God's will, and everyone has his or own luck, you die now thats what written on ur palm, gotta take it bro. since when i become synical). well, but i am already anyway. if i gotta die, i will die.thats what i believe. so dont bring any issue of future parameter goal bitch. God speaks here.
the thing is what sultan said will be obeyed here. he is the representation of God. and Jogja is a very mystical place and spot anyway. jogja is cornered on the middle by the southern sea on the south, which is also mystical and full of myths with its queen of the ocean known as Roro kidul who likes to 'take' people in to the sea. and on the north we have that proud mount merapi. and its said that those two powerful items, the southern sea and the mount merapi is the protector of this city,and the sultan's palace is the item that maintain the balance of the natural frenzy made by the two items i mentioned above. What Sultan's said mostly will come true. and also this one i assume. ahh.
well, the wind that going to blow on this city is called the tropical storm. is it? since now is still the rainy season, but the whether is hot anyway. i guess this is the cause of the storm. the difference of the temperature, the hot wind colides with the cold rain. and it breaks the balancy.oggjjj....what an analysis.
anyway, this is an image of a tropical storm happened last year on the carribean sea.it looks awful to me.



does it look awful to you? i am starting to imagening things when i look at it.this is an issue everyone.get panic!!
more of the tropical storm here
and here
lets pray for the best,and pray for us in here.
i am crossing my fingers now.wish for luck.
tropical storm, i am ready!
ps: there are some club people here, who presumably will hit the floor in hours to come, dont they know that a big wind is coming, and i assume it wont be wind only, but with high tide water, no no no...dont they sense the panic?


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Thursday, February 03, 2005

last january, which was the one in 2004, i took my final task to set my ass free from my department. which is becoming a personal issue for me. like one of those people who are too loyal to their almamater. well, its not me but its hard to leave. yet, the future has calling each of our name and mine was called like 2 years ago. when eventually i knew what i really wanted in this life and to live with it. life sure is a long road since it took me almost the whole of my life to realy find out what i want with my life. and now i will really hit the road with my so called talents. well, i wont underestimate my talents. happy for having it. proud of it.speaking of my final paper. known as the undergraduate thesis.i am writing a paper confronting American so called hegemony. for those who dont know the meaning of the term, it means super power, specifically power to influence others globally that America somewhat having her grip on each of our fuckin ass and she knows just how to control us. do u like how it sounds?
personally, i am one of those who are already being hegemonized. i love america. yet, it is also fun to know that right now i am having the chance to ridicule what most americans are proud of.well, recently its very obvious that most human in this world hate America for what they did. for what they killed. for what they destroyed. for what they took.anyway, i still have to do it. i have to put america down. for the sake of my graduation. hahaha.
up to this moment i have sank my ass for hours to seek for that weak point. the bottom line. the item which makes America impotence for God sake.thanks to my conselour all researches eventually leads me to the underlying weakness of Uncle Sam. horaayy! just some clue, hegemony is the other easy name for America's mask of capitalist imperialism-what the fuck is that-which have attacked us like decades, seconds of our lives. some hours ago i was typing the paper and i heard roxxete on the radio. hours later i moved out and here i am and guess what i heard on the songs list? the roxxete. thats hegemony everybody. America is in each sections of your pretty ass life. well, the question is hegemony wont be existing without our consent. we are the one who give the consent. American stuffs and anything are not guilty pleasures anyway. America is some civilized people to which we are turning our heads to. Hollywood, Billboard, Grammy, Oscar...hallo!i live with those things. gee. is it that bad to be internalized by McDonalds? thats a rhetoric question.


look at the picture here...its also a hegemonic one. the actual situation not many of african american gain a prosperous life. this image is persuasive, for those to believe that life there is equal. but the issue is still arguable up to this moment.
give me time and i will sink Uncle sam's ass to the bottom of the grave. hahaha. i will point out her weakest point without which she is not what she is now.

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