Friday, March 11, 2005

how close you are to a person does not guarantee that he or she would share everything that she or he has to your sense of friendship. this is a harsh truth that i met tonight, actually dawn. i encountered this while talking to my mon hermano. i would never have known that he was with someone, the otherday, had not the waiter mentioned something about that on my face.actually i do realize that people have their own bussiness.there are things that people wont share with you, though you are their so called close friends, for the sake of their definite private life.the item which has been so expensive lately due to the presence of internet and satelite ( i heard that the most sophisticated satelite ever exist on earth will find out whereever you are and whatever you do, thats creepy!!). read Dan Brown's novel and find out about this sort of thing (he's the one who wrote the infamous The DaVinci Code,FYI).
back to the previous lines. my mon hermano's face was like busted. like i was not supposed to know that.obviously he wont share that with me.i was confused, in the sense that well...we share the subject about that bulging eyed-girl-whom-he-thought-was-playing-with-him sometimes ago, but now, its turning all around. i dont think that i have the exclusive unlimited access to my mon hermano's life but again, it is obvious to realize that he was setting a brickwall.eventually, he decided to go back home.i bet now he still think about that.its fair enough to know that he wont share that with me.well,again...he was busted.he was. and he was blushing.i knew it.and now i wonder how wide it would take for me to realize that we are not that open anyway to each other.i was thinking that i might be the only one who knows what he is facing the moment, and he knows what i have.for the sake of friendship and brotherhood i swept away any feelings of curiousity and pretence, he would tell me, unless he doesnot want me to know anyway.

for the sake of week-end, today is friday. my brother,komang,will celebrate nyepi,starting from tonight,this mid night.last year's nyepi was like...i forgot...but i remember that he was still in his old boarding and his girlfriend was here, and we were there accompanying him.and now,well...i dont know.i probably would sleep so tight to the pillow preparing myself to hit the floor tonight.its friday night everybody,time to shake.gag.yeah, a dj from netherland is coming to town, and for the sake of rave-ing purity,i come to seek the music and make my body turn around.yeah...hahaha.and tomorrow, there will be maliboro street festival. the whole malioboro street will be blocked. and i guess it would turn out like the kemang festival.well,i plan to take pictures...lets see.we will catch many nice moments then. and a...i will go there with my brother,budi...mmm...rosemary is going to launch her novel: kana di negeri kiwi on april...thats shocking.now i am not the only writer on the neighborhood then...hgahahahah....

stanley dirgapradja@petit garcon 3:26 AM [comment]

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