Tuesday, March 29, 2005

the template of my present webblog does not allow me to publish any spanish wannabe title (cause actually those spanish language i used before was, well, terrible). well, the previous sentence was actuallu not a good way to start this posting. to be honest, everyone would be confuse whenever they want to start a sentence. then the choice would be this flat cliche lines: everyone would feel hard to start sentence, then they would start it with this...hahahaha. anyway, this week is the pre celebration of my birthday, i would not easily and kindly share the date, but that friendster stuff is a mess.i am not the kind of person who likes to share the date of my number, come on...if you are my friend find out yourself! anyway, the friendster stuff announce everyone's birthday one week before it actually takes place. awful, everyday would ask me then...its kinda strange how indonesian celebrates birthday. they ask the birthday boy to treat, we suppose to be treated right? sigh.
now that many friends waiting to be treated, i feel awful...not awful, the word is such a mess. the thing is...i dont want to be 23!!! thats is so lame....
well, its not that lame, but the thought of being an adult, or just leaving your youth scares me. anyway, i am still a young man. the word YOUNG is still accessible for my identity. i think the fear is more than just, you know, rational, it has become irational. i used to wonder how it feels to become an adult. i used to think that when you have become a MAN, a respectable man, then the world would put respect on you. cause kids are often being underestimate. and for my case that goes on frequently. i am quite unlucky, frequently disregarded for my underated height. in short, i am not that tall. even there are girls who are taller then me, and some of the girls in the past, to whom i share an affectionate feelings were tall. sigh. i used to feel awful with my height. knowing that its just not enough. and that the world put more respect on tall guys.
tall guys can be a model, an actor, of course girls love tall guys. i feel low and losing my mood for love, if i consider that.
but the time has changed. cause the world believes that stanley fairouz osmond is more than a short cute guy, the world says that there is a great man with a great talent there. so, i broke the chain and smile to the world. i felt so wonderful knowing that my height is not a problem anymore, that love still smiles at me. ouuhhhh...so cliche...
sigh, again.
anyway, this is an open invitation for all of my friends:
my birthday will be celebrated on the some date of april, find that out first, and then you can come to the open air party.its a pot luck birthday party, so bring your own deserts, cakes and party things.
the event will start at 7 pm at kedai kopi. all of my close friends will be there, that does not include fake and posers. i have the hottest dj in town to shake the roof top for all of you guys...hahaha. the party will be like till...puke. thats cool enough?
anyway, free beer for all!!

(its all a lie up there!)

okay, i am turning 23. and i guess now, i am ready.

stanley dirgapradja@petit garcon 8:51 PM [comment]

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