Thursday, May 05, 2005

what should one do when they face such a twisting story of life? i guess when people are aware to this kind of thing then they would treat their life like a...well, shit hole. i mean, have you ever met someone that, you know, feel their life is not going anywhere. stuck and they better dead then alive? sigh. that kind of people surely have a very dramatic life, therefore...there is this term...drama queen. someone who miserably consider their life like in TV soaps. i mean, somehow her life or his life (cause there is always the drama king) has this similarity to the TV soaps. troubles. ups and downs. tears and laughs. i mean, normal life would be probably consists of those things too, but are there actually people who treated those things like they are so big? have i met a drama queen lately? well, last 2 years i was having such friend.and she was like trouble some everywhere.enough of that. she's not the kind of person i want to remember. she is still a friend though.
i wrote this one cause today i am so dumb that i dont know its holiday. yes dear. i was dumb struck to know that this is a holiday.shoot.
so now i drop myself to the net and back again, buzzing things around. sigh. many people out there asked me, well..what makes me so addictive to this thing. i dont know what and how i should explain but i feel the thrill of this untouchable world. can you? i feel like falling from a point to a tunnel of no end and where each sight i make would sucked my brain into whole new perspective.isnt that cool. just a sight and you can learn things. and up to now, i cant imagine if i have to live without the word 'online.' and now, i drop myself to a porn site, well...2 porn sites. which i was not, i mean, not visiting like for ages...
i like these 2. unlike any other sites who conventionally follow the old pattern of porn, in a sense that well, i need sites who moderately put images into categories like 'i wanna **** you like an animal.' how cool is that? hjahahahah. i found such cathegory here...and well, the images in that categorys said so. i wanna bang you like an animal. hahaha. well, i am still buzzing those sites while writing this...imagine...
FYI, last night was YOga's birthday...we buzzed around and drop our ass to DR.again. well, previously we went to see a rap competition.many cool competitors. stylish rappers and well...average. but some are just cool.erno was cool.yeah, erno was there.we went like with berto, erick, me, yoga and....well just four of us. but later we split and the one that went home together was just me, yoga, and chandra.
they are friends who i just used to see from a far. now they are this close.
i guess i need new circle of friends, not that i would leave the one i have now. but most of the times i think that i need friends who i can really evolve with, and if these new guys i met just these 2 days can bring the sphere that i want in a friendship well...thats just cool.
now, i am blank...i dont know that today is holiday...and i still want to revise my thesis. where should i go? should i rent some movies?....sigh...lame.

stanley dirgapradja@petit garcon 9:04 AM [comment]

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