Monday, September 26, 2005

i wont brag that i am a writer. dedicated to my devotion and my passion in writing i guess i can consider that i am one. as usual, its not about me being a writer. there are types of writers. some of these writers, including me-but i am distance from this type i am writing about-writer for movies. they write scripts which later being produced and recorded into films, aka motion picture. related to films, there are films that deliver the issue of multiple identities. it does not have to be more than two. sometimes there are just two. do you believe that? or have u met some one who happens to develop multiple personality or identity?
it does not seem to be happen just like that, but recent movies in my list had been telling the stories about people with multiple identities. to name a few: fight club, identity, hide and seek,and that johny dept movie which i couldnt remember, and some others. i read that stalin had many names, well does that include in multiple identities? i guess one can skip that, stalin probably had more than many names, 106 names for exact, because he had to escape the killers looking at his head all the times. its hard for people like stallin, or hitler, or name any other stubborn politicians, their head has tags with prices and some people used these tags for their income. these people called as the assasins.
back to the issue, multiple identities.


from those movies, one would notice the pressure from the society that cause such deep reactional response on the person. the pressure leads to the wish or desire to escape. for some people the pressure is just too hard to handle and when they cannot really escape then one part of them has escaped, in form of someone probably they dont even know themselves. they unleash another person. lets see, edward norton is so damn bored with his life and he tries to escape then he unleashed brad pitt, his other personality he wished for. john cussack is another identity of a criminal, this one is probably developing in a very young age. i read somehwere that this split identity comes when one faces hard troubles. if those troubles come over again and again and again, then one would probably unleashed more than one personality. sounds freaky enough. and every 3 or 4 years a person has the tendency to unleash one personality. as they grow older the actual person would also develop a split character that grows mature like they do.
have u read the book about this girl who develops mmm 16 personalities? is it 16? skip that. but the issue is she has more than 1 personalities due to her desire of escapes. she wishes that she could be a 30 something woman who posseses this and that. then she unleashed this woman. her other personality. wow.
okay, in those movies the characters are undergoing such pressures. personally i havent witnessed such cases. none of my surroundings show the tendency.
ah suddenly it comes to mind, have u heard about the old woman announcer from Jakarta who has a guy personality within her and she managed to trap many beautiful women announcers in Jakarta? i guess thats an example. probably she is a lesbian but also developing a split identity. she tricked all those women with an image of a really cute guy, which i thought was cute too-laugh-, and she admitted to those women that she was he, i mean...that guy is her...how can u say it. well she said to those girls that the guy in the picture, which she gave to all her victims, is her. this old grandma planned to marry those announcers while they have not even met each other for real. freaky.
for some people the life probably has given them more than they could handdle, i thought so to, until my sanity brought me to the fact that there is no such thing like overweight burden. i realized that when it becomes so harder just left it to the God. God knows what to do. but again, i think God would help if we still sane. if we are insane then it returns to our own effort, we should be sane first,then we can think clearly. hahahaha.

ps: have anyone realized that this blog belongs to my other personality?

stanley dirgapradja@petit garcon 7:15 AM [comment]

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Friday, September 16, 2005

the cold play's reinvention.
the year was 1999, or something like it, when i first caught the glimpse of the neurotic's yet snychronized and full of lurking eye sights of chris martin. he was..well skinny, his eyes were unfocused, he tried so hard to stay focus on the camera but he just could not and his body language was awkward. that was yellow. and i thought that well, this band will be swept away by times, one hit wonders, just like any other british act who try to perform any indie like act to the bussiness. i think it took me a year to forget that skinny chris martin and his neurotic eyes, until the year was 2000 when suddenly he gets back to my life.
one of my college mate has the parachute album on his room. suddenly i remember chris' awkward dance on that video. and still, probably the band had completely vanished and no one will ever hear things about them in the near future. no sights of neurotic eyes and skinny lead vocal on TV, again.
but i was damn wrong.
i dont know since when a rush of blood to the head brought a new meaning to british acts. literally, the sentence addresses the sudden sanity that comes to one's condition. the sudden sanity that comes to your body after you passed out. try to feel it. just twist your feet a bit. put them under restraining pose and hold it like 1o minutes. feel it already? release it. thats how it feels. thats what cold play's next album looked like. that was 2 years ago i suppose. in my place, cold play's first video from the album suddenly justify the new look of cold play for the fans and the music fans. they dont? or its just me?
well, i remember the moments when i would consider chris martin was just one drug addict with neurotic performance and way of singing, not to mention his eyes. he was just some college boy who could write a song and happened to be one of the recording artist from the recording company. one damn big recording company. he was using none of the sleek look in 'yellow' and suddenly he appeared like sleek blue collar people in UK when 'in my place' eventually came. not just him. the whole band did.
and i did notice that for that album chris was like...wearing suits all the time. i mean in most of their videos. years changed and i could not find that neurotic look again. i wonder where have they gone. but it amazed me. chris was more like...preparing himself to embrace adulthood, or probably he had entered years ago? anyway, chris reminds me of the flaming lips leading vocalist. but flamming lips' vocalist is more like one unshaved old hubby for me. and like any other leading man on any band, chris made it to justify himself as the leading man of the band. he appears frequently on most of the videos. sometimes just himself. sometimes other members would appear to but still chris made it to steal most of the scenes. and his justification is completely a winning one because up to this very moment i write this post down i dont know the names of the other members of cold play. cold play means chris martin for me.
a rush of blood to the head created a massive media exposure for the band, and they are every where. i mean everywhere. but its not the beginning of it yet. for me. i am not a big fan of this band, i mean...i was not a big fan of this band, and now i am. therefore, i did not really put attention to what happened to chris and his other band mates. but when i heard he started to date gwyneth paltrow i was quite amuzed and months later they got married. what a kickin ass couple. one managed to steal the oscar and one is yet to become a musical living legend. well, i was happy to know that eventually they got married and now with a baby son. chris' fatherhood is an edible story for every gossip column. and for God sake, Chris broke down the idea that none british lads can surf. he can. i mean, he surfs dude. ok, until this point i was yet their fan. a rush of blood to the head did not amaze me that much instead of those new images the band brought to the surface, and their seemingly identical songs. what i did not realize was those songs brought the huge ambience the band would bring all the way to the next album...the must have X and Y.
i did not quite remember when i arrived to the head lines that before the album was actually on market the singles 'speed of sound' has been sold for more than 500.000 items. speed of sound was lurking the net. the trance filled single drag everyone's ear,includes my anxiety of the single itself. for more than weeks i still did not manage to hear the single. i wonder, i wonder, and i wonder. then came the day when i caught the video on MTV. and that neurotic face was there, again. after all these years. his dynamic awkward dance. his dance for God sake. the kind of dance that i really like to be drawn in right now. the first beats of the piano dragged me. i mean, really dragged me. the first several beats of the drums enchanted me.the video was...all that. until i caught the end of the video and the name of the director was there. speed of sound's video was one of mike romanek's masterpiece for holly mother. i reckoned the last time i caught mike's video was beck's and link kin park's faint which is still my favourite video up to this very moment. X and Y has hit the stores and for Holly mother it came first on the chart. none of the british band ever made that peak in america, beside the beatles. Rollingstone covered that cold play made their video in LA. a really rare case for british bands. probably beside U2. U2 is not a british band anyway. they are irish lads aight?

i could not continue writing this post cause chris blurred my mind with 'fix you' cold play's next single. this one is being shot by sophie muller. another american director. compared to ' speed of sound' i like this video more in a different kind of ways. i felt something really thrilling from this video. i have never really like Coldplay that much. well, if God blesses this guys then they will become a legend and i will manage to see their concert when that day comes. i will stand before the stage. catch them with my eyes and dance, and sing along with other die hard fans. i am yet a die hard fans but if these guys manage to keep their cool and their music boost my bumps and appreciation like now, i will be one.

lights will guide you home
and ignites your bone
and i will try to fix you..

ps:
notice the way chris plays the bulb several times in the video. i wonder what it means. does it refer to the 'lights that will guide you home and ignites your bone' ? whatever that is, the bulb has made a snychronized mesmerizing effect with the lyrics. its hypnotizing.
also notice the colors involved in the video. so chromatic, with ambience of red, purple, blue, and green.
and the most important part of the video, on the last part of the song when the crowd sang together as chris tries to finish the song...
thats the killing factor of this video...

i am dead. i am dead.

stanley dirgapradja@petit garcon 8:34 PM [comment]

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