been wondering, again, how the future will gonna be for a stanley osmond. having this name would be such a great task. its hard cause your not born that way. but the world always welcomes a new citizen on earth, which respectfully appreciating the life with all of its grandeur sites, isn't it? and i am one of those people. who walks grandeurly on the board walk, each phase of life, possitively believing to the thing called love, and amazingly naive.i always believe that good things will come. sincerely, i can not being so cynical. a friend of mine is. may be that's because she lives in the states and forgot how it feels to be an indonesian. strangely, she still loves eating at some small food vendor. home sweet home huh? cause you wont get cheap stuff on the lane of the USA darling. anyway, back again to the future thing. latelty i am grumping about my age.well, i am not afraid of becoming 36...but, when you are 22 and you dont know what to do with your life is a disaster. its like you have a good book, and you dont even know how to open the first page, you just know that the cover is nice. damn. how many of you are wondering how the future will be for you out there? are you wondering the same thing? cause actually i dont really wonder. i just want to walk on it, each day, without having to wonder what its gonna be. just wak it. just be there each day. doing good talkings, good friendships, good coffees, good sex, and the rest give it to the God. He knows what to do with your life. am i being pessimist and stupid? oh my God, am i bragging? i am not a frag queen am i? or am i going to be one when i brag like this? Carrie Bradshaw help me!!!