the beginning of the week is going to be hard. many things to do. am i too ambitious? everyone can be ambitious right? there are many things in this life you cannot get just by sitting down on your eyes and keep dreaming that you will have it one day. you have to FIGHT. there are things we called effort. and effort does not consist of one-two days hard work i suppose. which is true. even the founder of electricity must blew many lamps (?) and that gravity founder must sit uselessly in front of that lame apple tree (but it is not lame anymore). i am not afraid being called ambitious. but i am afraid when people doubt me for what i am doing. and feeling doubt whether i can do it or not. actually it is simple, its my last year here, and i want to leave something. my love for my department is timeless.you cannot explain it. well, some people can. i know that years ahead are my time to move on. doing the real deal. well, everyday is the real deal for me.but there are things you just have to do while you can, right. cross my fingers here...prepare for shounji, and (anyway) you may scream later.