i feel dumb. not doing anything makes me feel dumb. actually, i have my thesis to work on, but again...the thesis looks dumb that i wont touch it. i feel dumb cause i dont know what i want. actually i know what i want. i want my ass move,doing something that will change my world superficially.doing something really important so that i can make a difference not only for my world, but for the world out side. make anyone enjoying the summer like i do. feeling the fall like i do. is there anything world can do to quench me i am asking. may be i am toopoetic at the time. should i ask myself to go abroad and joining angelina jolie to work for the UN? wish i can hear a real life bomb not far from me, may be thats how i feel likely to feel so alive. i have been waiting too long for an answer. and its not coming yet.i still cant see it on the way. its been days, weeks.i try to fall in love. yet,will love quench me? after all, i must say to myself: is this what i really want? if love really works to save your world, will you feel flat? will you feel satisfied? i know one thing that i'll die another day. i keep telling myself that big plans are on my way. i am listening to Karen Carpenter's cant smile without you now...its draining my heart. i am one who believes in love and dying to wait the love to come. but i guess the waiting's been too long. Carpenter's songs always drain my heart. Karen's voice is like a machine that takes your senses away to the past. too bad that she's dead tragically.many of world's hits were made by Carpenter. you never know how you'll die right? i dont want diamond rings. i just want to knpw what's tomorrow looks like for me. i want to fight now!!