Wednesday, November 10, 2004

the holiday is coming, the lebaran day is on the edge. everyone is going home to celebrate.
i hate it when it comes to this holiday. cause the town feels dead. i mean more than 60% of population of this city is actually coming from outside the town. so when the big days are emerging u can imagine how it looks like. dull. cause stores are closed. the streets are quiet. and friends are gone, a while.
and my brother will visit his lame girlfriend. she is lame. wonder why they can still be together. jealousy? like i am slut enough to feel so. well, she is lame. what a player. never been really consistent. while admitting to be one.ur so vail girl. u r so vain.
anyway, last night i spent some quality times with my brother. not k. but b. k is the kind of brother who dissapears and u can guess where he is by the moment he is missing. while b is the other way around. and i always can talk about something with b. while k would gone to sleep so soon that i'll lost my time to talk. wonder why his lame girlfriend can manage to keep him awake.
damn. u would think that i despise my brother's girlfriend? i just pity her because she's being inconsistent what she's saying. do u think u can play with someone's heart that easy? and she's the one who did it most of the time.
b told me about his being afraid of falling in love, again. his previous love was lame either. a very manipulator girlfriend he had. presently he is having a great deal of hatred for that woman. watch out, maybe she's around the corner and will have u as her next victim. that lame girl should be watched out.
well he told me that he's being thinking about stuffs too far. that i was guessing that he can never really feel love for someone cause the surroundings (seems to me) are determining that feeling. i dont know. may be i am wrong.
hopefully he does not entrapted by that kind of dull stimulan.
i am glad to know that now i can get closer to him, compared to how it was last 2 years. it was awkward. and i didnt feel glad about our relationship. well, he's the one whose gone. and at that time i was busy myself.
been buzzing around my writing again. been working on my next potential project. which is very interesting also.
shounji will be screened after lebaran. i will expand the showing to several campuses. and some movie houses. surprisingly, k told me that we can do something with the movie in bali. apparently,my brother m is working in a production house in bali. i thought that this is pretty a good chance. there u go. have a creepy time with our movie then. gag. i think everyone always love horror movie. so this is a big buzz.
ahhh. this makes me want to make another one. a prequel of shounji,or may be a sequel?
u decide.
till then. i think i need to watch more movies. for references.


stanley dirgapradja@petit garcon 11:12 AM [comment]

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