Tuesday, November 23, 2004

life is coming back to city. the rush is there again. the crowd. the students.
this time the fall is also here. the sign of the finishing of another year is coming, its on the edge.
yesterday, the rain broke out like a person who hasn't cried for years. and the earth mught actually want to cry. considering how it looks like presently. the world needs to cry once at a time. to ease heself. dont u feel the heat is increasing these days. last year was not this hot i reckoned. is this a sign of something? like the end of human's civilization, and the beginning of alien's invasion? i noticed that human have special interest on the area 51 issues. me either. anyway...the rain swept everything i feel lately.
a very close friend of mine is getting married in january. i was shocked. and having that big supreme shock which i can't tell u how it exactly feels. she's already a part of me. when she's leaving me so soon like this (not that she's going to die), but to know and to realize the fact that she will stay with her husband next year, raising a child, ahhh. i am ledt alone then. we are the kind of friends who go to shopping together. gossiping about cool stuffs which are happening at the moment. we share the same ups and downs, telling stories that u wont tell others. she's been very honest to me. thats why she's been very special to me. and i think it's normal to feel this emotion towards her big steps in her life. thats big step. to tie yourself. to get engagement ring. to life, to see the same guy everyday in your life and telling him that his eyes are the only eyes you would see everymorning. gee...that sounds very hard to do right? maybe it wont be that hard anyway. maybe its only a matter of time. and her time is now. ahhh...its getting veryhard to see what the future might will look like.
hhhh...sigh. anyway, i am still writing many things, editing some stuffs. missing some people. some of my friends are graduating this saturday. i would wait another term then. havent finished writing my thesis. poor me. i was very excited doing my thesis at the beginning but suddenly things came on my way, like my script writing. am i bragging? boasting about this thing? i wont blame anything. its my fault. i am easily taken by situation. and this is the outcome. silly you stanley.
many blind dates this week. many spontaneous action driven by stupid cocks.
oh stiffy me. have a princip please.

sigh.


stanley dirgapradja@petit garcon 2:16 PM [comment]

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