Friday, November 05, 2004

whats on today on my world?
let me tell ya all. nothing really big actually. but u know what? i had a nerve today.
meaning that i am so tired. lets reschedule that.
i was not having a really nice sleep last night. doing that poster-ing thing.
3 hours something of sleeping and fully awake by 7 until 6 pm just now and having my short nap.
a very short nap.
today, i went to a lelayu, its how the local people in jogja named the rituals for the death.
father of a friend of mine passed away last dawn. because of a severe bleeding on his brain which was caused by hypertension. i noticed that all of them were sad. they have to. its a father anyway.
i was sad when i lost my mom. even until now i feel like i am not having a very balanced life due to that lost.
i have been trying to love my life dearly. doing efforts to forget that actually i am sad within.
o gee, i am such a weenie(?). never will i grow to be such a man.
if only i am peterpan, right?
okay. we hit the road and i was hectic. today was such a frenzy one.while i was needing sleep badly. badly.
i could not resist to yawn. yet i was crying either. people were crying frantically for the father. why could not I?
anyway. i have put the poster for my movie in campus. tomorrow i will spread the news to town. like its christmas? hahahah. i am one funny bastard.
well, i could not wait to see the crowd watching my amateur movie. repeat. amateur. i love that word.
being an amateur is such a nice start. well, tomorrow me and the crew will see the movie for the first time ever.
while tonight, i am going for another editing. God help me. yikes.
well, i need loads of nerve here.
damn it. i hate being sensitive.
God i need to be lot stronger.




stanley dirgapradja@petit garcon 9:30 PM [comment]

***