as the Christmas getting nearer and nearer and my worries increase day by day, today i traced a light. has he eventually realized that he's been too hard with himself and us. well, u guys might wonder what has been going on with me anyway. well, its a father and son thing. and i am in that phase. it phase. but, one may always ask that question anyway 'what a dream may com when it counters barriers?' no one would imagine that. since a dream so important when it faces barrier would lose passion to achieve it. sigh.

positively, i wont be able to go back home for Xmas. this is the road i must take. there will be next Christmas. and the next. and the next. the celebration still runs annually. but, this is Christmas. one cannot imagine that he or she stranded on a lonely night at Christmas eve. many songs always tells sad tone when it comes to the idea of spending Xmas on ur own. just right. eventually i made it to get back my cellphone. i need a new contact. since the old one already expired. gosh. so lame.

well, i cross my finger hoping for miracle. but God has made too many miracles for me. and many other people would love miracles happen upon them too. is this what He called as the quality of being Obnoxious of a God. has He ever said that? but He is everywhere. i am crossing fingers. hoping for luck and remedy.

just got back from lunch with my sister. we shared the thoughts of Xmas. since both of us are a big fan of this festive. each year we always hopes that it will be cheerful and fun. this year's has started to shine a bit. today. though there's a bit moody sparks on the corner.

yeah. i am pointless.