just like last year, this year i spend the new year's eve alone. apparently the whole braddies-thats my fam-went to some resident out there for my father's being appointed for a new position in his current office. he's moving to a new office, on a new place. anyway, i visited jakarta for like 2 days for a very solitude Christmas of my own. jakarta was raining cats and dogs when i arrived. it was like those noir movies. the sky was dark. many fogs above. and those times up there suddenly i remember movies in which the planes crahsed down. yikes. i watched too many movies. a horrid imagination you stanley! cut it out. thank God i landed safely. i took a cab and searched for a nice hotel where i can watched jakarta in silence for at least two days before actually going back to Pontianak.jakarta was nice during rainy season like this.i was quiet solem for me just to sit and lay in the hotel hours and hug someone. yeah someone.dont want to brag about this. its like paris during the victorian. when everything turned a bit sentimentil and moody. and the sky added the tone of your romantic evening.

anyway, Indonesia mourned a lot this week due to the big quake and tsunami that followed on the 26th of december. that was a terrific horror to end a year.a record. since i recalled a news which stated that this catasthrophy is the 5th worse natural disaster in a century. wow. i think its worst. it is. its never been this awful. i mean this is a disaster. like thousands of dead bodies on every corner of the currently dead city. Aceh is completely ruined. if Pontianak is located on the epicenter, no doubt that this city will also be swept away. i watched a news this morning saying that the calculation would precise that the reconstruction of a new aceh (aftermath) would take like 5 years until Aceh can really recover. its terrible, considering it current status as a military zone due to the possible atack of GAM on the area. now its completely blown away by water. may be its right...that we wont put attention to recover Aceh's condition had it not been this disaster. anything might be possible.

may God give strength for everyone losing their beloved ones in the disaster. may each casualties be blesses and fogive for their sins for they are being taken earlier. no one knows God's plans.

well, Pontianak has changed a lot this past few years. i hardly know the area anymore. many things are new for me. i visited my junior high school. the best school ever. i bought the old favorite meat balls i used to eat when i go to school there. i remember that its already expensive before the crisis and now it get a lot more expensive. but i think its the best meat ball ever. ever. nothing beats this city for its food. chinese food especially.

ahhh, so much things i missed about the city but somehow i know that i hardly belong here, my heart is out there. for something bigger.

anyway, i will leave the city in days a head. sigh.

what do i miss?