Saturday, January 15, 2005

Bob is the first person, to whom i have affection, i met today. he does not know me. may be he does. we met each other ocassionally. but we never talk. cute is relative, and for me he's chubby (whats the point then?). the thing is, i just got back from a very hectic holiday, if thats what holiday was. many obligations due next week. and on april i gotta finish everything in this city, get my ass back to Jakarta. urghhh. they call it the new year resolution. what so ever. anyway, holiday brought me several thoughts. that going to the dentist really cost u a lot. they put u into their appointments. they pulled so many of your teeth without any clear reasons why those teeth need to be pulled out. well, i realized though that my teeth are bad ones. the doctor cleaned the plak (is that right?). and put some, what they call it, additional layers to my fractured teeth. its cleaner than before. the whole braddy went to the dentist. and some younger fam of mine cried. no wonder dentist always scared little kids. well, dad told one of my siblings to become a doctor one day. so that u'll get richer quick and can drain people's money. gag.
hey, the big fight i was really worried about never really takes place. instead we talked egotistically. we didnt really talk. my father was not such a father who really talks with his kids. he's telling you waht to do and he thinks you can make it the way he did. and i found out that, without my recognition, that he already built somewhat a company, to which he wanted me to take care of it. knock knock.a predetestined future. but i somewhat like the idea. me holding a company. that means i can still write scripts. but i dont know. i dont think i belong to companies. i mean those regulating stuffs. they are just not my thing. a manager who is also a screenwriter. how's that sounds to you?
well, Aceh is still in destruction. many people go there to help the need. the medias called this situation somewhat ' weeping Indonesia'...'mourning nation'...i dont know the situations there, i suppose its very terrible. i have a little calling in my heart to help them. but i couldn't. i dont have the capabilities which needed to help those people.

i just wish things get better and safer for everyone in Aceh. cause honestly, Indonesia is really a hell now. and i think its enough to weep. this nation really needs to gets up on his ass and do something. lets recover.

anyway, my usual burjo is now open and gets bigger than before. its one of the place where i used to escape my solitude. at least i can meet and talk to someone i know. Jogja is still calm i guess. i found out that many students are going home for the semester break. or at least the new year's holiday for some private college-like mine.

well, the day after tomorrow the new semester will be started. and i will spend the next 4 months to finish my study. pray for me everyone. the study has been expensive enough for my parents. and i dont want to be described as one who does not appreciate education by slowing my phase in learning on the bachelor degree. cause education IS expensive and many people out there are not lucky enough to get the chance to study and live the life like i do.

i need to appreciate and responsible more with my life.

i guess thats my resolution.

stanley dirgapradja@petit garcon 7:28 PM [comment]

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