the invitation from my dearest friend has come.

Tatang will get marry next two weeks, and she've been busy preparing things for the once in a life time celebration of her life (we catholic believe in the so called till death do us part, since we are bonded into rule of no divorce, a marriage can only be separated by power that we human cannot deal with-which is death). whatever she has decided for her life, i am fully on her side, supporting her. i realized myself that its hard, and i dont know whether i will thrill myself like i did when cimot get married some times ago. suddenly i was histerical. i didnot know what actually happened. but i knew i was sad at that time. there was a bit of denial on that.the ultimate fact is of course their life will change completely after the holly promise.

i remember exactly how me and tatang used to be a powerful duo. we went to parties together. we shop together. we duke the night in the club together. we chat in random cafe's in this lovely jogja together. we went to Jaksa (jalinan akrab sastra; a welcoming gathering for freshmen in my department) together and hit the groove for freshmen. we always did it. we love to do it. i like it with her, we can share things and she has always been on my side when the world turns against me. she can put her mind still on me by not following the rest of the world turning against me. she's still there. and i am thankful for that. this is my best friend's wedding. ahh. she's going to leave all of us. all her proud friends.

rumors may evoke on her wedding. but human cant tell their life, can they? there's always a bit of twist in man's chapter of life. and whatever the rumors can be. i am still here dear bintang. u would always be the star of my heart dear friend, sister. shines. just shine for me. i will shine for you too.

i am crossing my fingers for your luck, always. hopefully this is the wedding of your life time. be happy, be proud of it. don't regret anything. if later on i cry on your big day, its a tears of happines for you, though a spark of sadness tangled within that laugh. but just a bit.

this is my best friend's wedding.