yesterday budi told me that he is going to be here, in jogja, today. while i was imagining what we would have done by this hour-the three of us, with miss beth-since we are the famous b three. gag. suddenly, he sent me a short message telling me that he passed the chance to go back here till today. darn it. nothing pretty much important though. just the thought that i should find my agenda today. i have told myself not to be dependant to friends. once, i was placing myself in a crowd. too tight that its hard for me to get out. they made me depend my night so much to them. i learned my mistakes. if that was a mistake. i guess the term that friendship has its high and low tides fits to what happened to me.friends come and gone. only a few really stay and really listen to what you say, and you dearly also want and need to listen to what they say.
well, budi told me that he wanted to share some stories. it was strange how we started this relation at the beginning. i was such a pain in the ass for him. until i eventually i quit bugging him. and both of us gone in our daily routines. until came the moment that we realized that we fit, we can actually talk things together. now we are close friends. and he is still my brother. may be he is the kind of friend that wont go away, for me. hopefully.
related to this,i just watched mengejar matahari by Rudi soedjarwo. friends come and gone but the memories spent with them never gone.



compared to AADC-whats up with cinta i prefer chasing the sun (mengejar matahari.red). the premise is simple. the shots were great. and its dark. but somehow i felt like watching a dark hongkong wannabe flick. i supposed, rudi soedjarwo really influenced by wong kar wai or at least tsui hark. the pictures were somewhat made to be dark and dim, and on the corner of each shot they dont really explore the light. let it dim. and it was so hongkong. the set took the image of hongkong evenmore. there is a slum area in hongkong where small and cheap apartments stand together side by side creating a limited air situation where beggars, triad, and other sort of criminals flocked. anyway, no jumping pictures or missing stories in this one compared to AADC. the ending was losing some of the thrill given by a very nice beginning and a good body structure of the story. i just thought that other caharacters beside ardi (played by winky wiryawan) should be explored bit deeper.cause the death of obet and the captured of danar really hung on the edge of confusion for me. Rudi soedjarwo must put more parts for these guys. anyway, fadli baadilah who played danar really captivated me. i think i must write a character especially made for him later on. yeah. an action one. what do you think. and ade habibie would do good as another hunk in my movie. gag. yeah,i think that would be cool.


among the movies i rented, i also managed to watch ocean's twelve.which apparantly hasn't finished. i told myself to watch each movie my foster father starred in. that's george clooney. gag. i wonder how it feels to have a father like him. and how itb feels to have a playboy father. looking good on his age. and how it feels to be his son. will i inherit his greece hair cut and look and his playboy habbit. fruits alwats fall next to the bottom of its root. hahahahhaha. what an imagination. i know thats impossible.a surprising fact is that my dad wont ever marrie and have children. i read that he was sort of dissapointed by one previous relationship that he thought women and kids will only bother his free state of mind. poor women. one surprising fact-again-he's one from two famous men ever appeared on the cover of vogue. vogue never put a man as its cover. but my father made it. haha.
and i was imagining one day of clooney get married to the most prettiest singer i ever adore. shania twain.

how would their kids look like? can anyone tell me? anyway, i just watch my mom's latest video called don't. taken from her latest album, her collections of her best singles with couples of new songs and remixes. i wonder how she always able to write a very good hook and tunes in her songs. she's on the top of successfull concerts of all time. her concerts always sold out. her records sit on the fifth peak from ten most successful records of all time.sigh. she's just damn pretty.
anyway, i came back from the mall and bought some candles, dried wooden sticks and glass jar to decorate my white room. i am so excited. i guess i would buy a fish for my room. i've always wanted a fish in my sight.lets see what happen tomorow.
i get to register myself for the new semester.
sigh.