Tuesday, March 15, 2005

what a week. this is wonderful. but i dont know whether my guts are there to do it, to survive the hectic avalon of my present life. its going to be very busy, and the word deadline is in my dictionary, again, eventually. well, i do not know, i did not know how it feels to have such deadline. and since i manage to become a scriptwriter, that was a year ago, i met such term.deadlines. i remember i was working on this premise and those company wanted me to develope the story, and i was dumbstruck cause i went nowhere until D minus one and my supervisor called me and message frequently to check whether i have been doing something on the story. and the day got closer and closer to my deadline and i was still as dumb as a donkey, i could not do anything with the story.i could not meet the demand of the story. some part of the story was really demanding that i was going nowhere and felt terrible if i made a mistake.yikes. and there was I, i remember quite closely that i was wake up until 2 or 3 in the morning to write the story (it must be submitted the next morning). i finished the writing. but i felt like writing some garbage that i did not deserve writing. well, my SP told me that just try it, so i wrote it. with a lack of knowledge what i wrote. he sent some materials to contribute things in my writing. yet, those packages he sent me became stranded on the corner of my dusty room. the materials were heavy i could not read it once. its about something big, heavy, and dangerous, and i need to put them in the story. gosh. i suddenly realized that i was told to write something about a damnation of a certain country, which is my country.sigh. that was hard. yet, i wrote it. and i did not know what i write.as i told u, it was a garbage. and now i wonder what kind of story managed to go into the company.the one which will produce the winning story.sigh.back to the deadline.
i dont know what i was born for but this is what i am doing now and i like it, somethings are good, and the rest is...well, i dont know, they find it good. the thing is i have a thing for writing (not meant to boast or something, but people need to make a living rite?). this far writing was and is good.i find the thing i can really related to and love to do.

well, this week some more jobs are waiting. most of them are of course, writing, and they have that deadlines. woops. i dont know whether i can make a frequent posting later on. i got a soap to write each day. and another soap for a day also but a day needs two ep. and my second amateur movie is also in line. and still many things to prepare for that movie. have i told u that i decided to change the title? yaye. it needs to be more rawk in a sense. and a...
well, i think a daily visit to kedai kopi would probably help me figuring out the stories? ump ump...

stanley dirgapradja@petit garcon 2:11 PM [comment]

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