this week is started with one thought that appeared on my mind. and bugging me all the time.
i come to the realization that i have been letting down so many people.
they have such big expectation for me, but then i let it down.it stuck in my mind that on this age all i can do is being selfish. meaning that, i dont try to listen to all those expectations from others. instead of making them happy i decided to do it my way.well, is it wrong anyway? i mean, people have voice in their heart. but i dont know whether i have been listening to mine all the time.
i just thought that it would be cool, if i dont have to listen to what people say and do what i like.its just not cool that many people out there determine to know what people should do.you know those people who judge themselves to be the one who shall say that this is good and that is bad?
ahhh, i lost the clue what to say.
its just that i dont like this condition. it worries me, if actually there are more people turned sad and sorrowful and even hated me for what i was saying or maybe didtothem.well, would people be happy if i always do as they say? then when come my time to do what i like? you cant always make people happy.
is there any book that makes you uncareless and would probably be the most loveable person ever lived?
i think that would be sucks right?
you cant be loveable all the time. you need drama, you need to quarel with others.cause if you dont fight then it all be straight lines.and that is boring.sigh.by quarelling with others you will find out the way and the tunnel you should take and you can take to make things better.and strangely it will force you to do things that please people.
i need privacy here.